Monday, January 30, 2012

A to-do list disguised as a blog post and other musings

Ok ok, I know this is disappointing on many levels, but cut me some slack.  I'm working on some nice fiction for you, but I may have booked up my weekends with all kinds of activities lately and I'm trying to catch up on a bit of study as well.  Yes, t'is a sob story for the ages.  So consider this an appeasement; I'm giving you lovely people the chance to get to know me better.  Who could want more from a piece of writing?

Here is a big list of things that I want to do before it's too late.

Academia
  1. Qualify for my actuarial qualification thing - This is the most immediate, but I guess that's because it is also the most in progress.  1/15 down, and if I try really really hard, hopefully I'll add another 3 to that this April.  Depressingly, I often feel like I won't be able to touch the rest of this list until this is out of the way.
  2. Take some sort of film course - I'm really not fussy on this one.  It could be a weekend course on directing, an Open University module or two on criticism, or maybe I'll just end up reading Sidney Lumet's Making Movies a couple of times.
  3. Learn a foreign language - Preferably German or Russian seeing as I already own the books.  However, I'm open to suggestions, especially if the right person comes along and I want to impress them.  
  4. Beat Iain McGibbon at chess - self explanatory.
Artistic
  1. Finish at least one screenplay - At this stage I have started at least five scripts.  I think the longest one is around 40 pages.  I don't even mind if it's terrible, but to see it through would be an accomplishment
  2. Write enough crappy short stories to comprise a book - It'd be nice to have something with my name on, even if it's only self published.  
  3. Learn some form of dance - I reckon this'll end up being tap.  It looks so fun!  Plus I don't have the body for ballet (I like chocolate more than Swan Lake, but I think I like the Rite of Spring more than chocolate, hmm).
  4. Paint something - Actually working on a canvas looks satisfying, even if it's just something I hang up in a room I never venture into.  This will probably end up as me making bizarre homemade cards and posting them to all my friends using obscure holidays as an excuse ("What's that you say? It's National Tree Planting Day in Iran?  Let me get the stamps!").
  5. Stick some collages to my bedside cabinets - They're from Ikea.  They're rather bland.  I've been collecting all the tear off covers to my LOVEFiLM envelopes, plus I have an awful lot of Empire and Q magazines that I doubt I'd ever feel the need to read again.  Let's get creative!
Personal
  1. More jogging - I'm quite happy with my exercise rota at the minute (phwoooaarr pull ups, generally lots of pull ups actually), but if I don't want my heart exploding and generally making a mess of the poor whoever's house that I'm sitting in, I think I need to do more jogging.
  2. Less food and crappy food - Last weekend I was incredibly active, partaking in a lot of walking and chatting and general good times.  Unlike when I'm at home studying or at the office, I didn't eat some ridiculous quantity of food this weekend.  I didn't even feel that hungry.  Unfortunately, now I'm back in London, I'm already fighting against the urges to raid the vending machine.  I also need to make more of an effort to cook less processed foods.  Done a good job of that last night and today, so let's keep it up!  More fish!
  3. Mood - I'm quite the mercurial beast when I want to be.  Some days, I'm incredibly cheery, happy to chat to anyone.  Other days, I just want to get into the office, sit at my desk, put my head phones on and only communicate to people through email (yep email, not even the nice MSN Messenger-esque program we have on our work laptops).  I think the current ratio is about 60% to the headphones, so I need to work on that.
  4. Conversationalist - More ways that I am odd.  If I barely know you, I'm hesitant to start any line of conversation.  If I consider you a friend, you're subject to a barrage of half remembered stories, facts and experience all thrown at you in a seemingly random order.  Sometimes my conversation can be compared strongly to a small child chasing after a football and being distracted by all kinds of nonsense along the way.  So, more confidence and more structure.  Less is more?
  5. Move - First, further into the city, second out of the city completely.  Hopefully I'll be lucky and end up in Canada. If not, there are plenty of nice places elsewhere.

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Other musings

So yes, I've been busy.  Last weekend, I visited my good friend Ella (found here http://apprentice42.wordpress.com/) on the farm on which she works.  I knew I was going to have a fun time because I always do when chatting to her (unlike me, she's a fantastic conversationalist, and superb listener as well), but I didn't expect the experience to be this thought-provoking.  The outdoors were stunning, the animals incredibly adorable/wonderful/enthralling, and the people were really admirable.  Everyone was so friendly and positive.  So yes, the weekend put me in a fantastic mood.  My mood was so good in fact that it survived the first two tube journeys I made upon my return.  My patience was definitely being pushed on the way home tonight though.  Deep breaths, happy thoughts (note: I still need to read that paper on the Tobin tax, it's on my bedside table, won't get to it tonight or tomorrow (going to the theatre tomorrow!), but I will soon!).

This weekend I'm even busier!  I'm going to the SFX Weekender with Jonny (found here http://jonathanwriting.blogspot.com/), Richard & Sid.  We're driving from London to North Wales at some ridiculous time on Friday morning, then hanging out at this convention thing for a few days.  I'm going to try and talk people into visiting Llandudno and the Great Orme (my favourite rock feature) on the Sunday before we head back.  

I probably won't get a chance to post anything before, so a pre-emptive happy Richey Edwards day (hmm, maybe I should send out a card).  He was such an influence on me when I was younger and still remains my favourite poet.  It saddens me that he's become a footnote in British popular and academic culture.



Not much on the film front lately.  Watched Midnight Run a few days ago and had the soundtrack in my head every since.  Finished off the Brood tonight.  I'll try and do some reviews soon as well.

I'm trying something slightly different for the next bit of fiction.  It was sparked by a conversation I had recently.  Let's see how it goes.

Friday, January 20, 2012

Why I don't think Shame is about sex addiction and other musings.

Spoilers ahoy.

A week ago, I saw Steve McQueen's new film Shame.  I was a huge fan of his previous film Hunger, so I had kept my eye on his follow up project for a while.  The breakout star of the aforementioned film, Michael Fassbender, had signed on.  The addition of Carey Mulligan to the cast had my anticipation for the film maxed out.  So although my desire to see the film reached a high during production, the UK media finally caught up with my excitement around a week before the opening.  Hell, it even got mentioned on stodgy conservative daytime television shows like This Morning (where they compared it to Last Tango In Paris).  Anyway, I walked out of the cinema last Friday night relatively happy.  I thought it was a great, if not life changing, film.  The acting was incredible and the direction even more so.  The script had some faults, there were some poorly realised characters, but overall a worthy if not superior follow up to McQueen's debut.  However, what I seem to have experienced was a completely different film to those around me.  The most uttered thing I overheard as I stood from my seat and took the stairs to exit rather steadily, was "my, that was intense."  I don't agree.

In fact, I disagree with a lot of the public sentiment on Shame.  Unfortunately, most of the discussions I have regarding films these days is on Twitter and I have not currently perfected the art of condensing my opinions in less than 200 characters.  So, I thought it would make a nice break from the overly Woody Allen "inspired" (read rip off) bizarre bits of fiction I've been doing to break this down somewhat.

Okay, let's make no bones about it, Michael Fassbender's character Brandon has a lot of sex in this film.  Sex is something that occupies a unique position on society, even more so on film.  In life, sex is still a rather taboo subject considering its necessity in life.  In film, it's a good way not only to titillate and excite an audience, but also a fine method of notching up the film's rating along side a good set of cussing.  This is all very odd considering how prevalent violence has become on screen considering the criminal nature of such actions in real life.  Now, in the run up to the film's release, a huge part of the fervour surrounding the film was the description of the central character as a sex addict.  The BBC even went so far as commission a documentary on a British comic's experience with his addiction and release it the week following the film's opening.  This is where my main source of conflict comes with others' interpretation of the film.  I do not think Shame is about sex addiction or addiction at all.

This is not meant in a Mark Kermode-esque "Tinker, Tailor, Solder, Spy is not a film about spying, it's about trust and merely contains spies".  I don't see any reason to come out of that film with the conclusion that Brandon is a sex addict unless one walks in thinking that he is.  Also, not contradictory, I'm not trying to suggest that Brandon couldn't be a sex addict, but this is not a secure conclusion based on the information presented by the film as a stand alone entity.  As is no doubt painfully obvious from my rantings on this blog, I am no expert in anything, let alone psychology, human behaviour or what classes as addiction.  So, with that in mind, let's play out my ill-informed opinions.

Shame doesn't hold back any punches when it comes to Brandon's sexual appetite.  In the opening act of the film we see him have sex with a prostitute, masturbate at home and at work, have rough sex under a bridge, and finally, leer and nearly seduce a fellow subway user.  Now I'm not trying to suggest that this is normal behaviour, but can it justify the label addict?  I am of the understanding that addiction implies that one is dependent on some manner of substance or behaviour that may have unhealthy or unfortunate consequences. Now, whereas Brandon definitely partakes in habitual dosages of physical contact, I don't see anything that deems his behaviour dependent on sex at the expense of other aspects of his life notwithstanding deliberate avoidance of issues.  Sure, he is definitely having sex more often than most of us out there, but how is having a sexual release three times a day any different than enjoying three square meals a day?  Why is a compulsion for sex different from a compulsion for food?  On this note, I know a few people who eat probably more than they should, but they exercise enough to keep their weight and physique in check.  So does this imply that addiction is no mere more than just having a larger appetite than others for certain behaviours and in addition, not being able to keep such behaviours from infringing onto one's life?  In which case, I think there is a clear argument against Brandon being classed as an addict.

During the running time of Shame, I feel that there is only three sequences where Brandon is out of control.  However, I feel that although he is expressing himself sexually in these sequences (or, in one moment, merely attempting), the cause of this erratic behaviour lies elsewhere.  The cause being his relationship with his sister.  In the opening shots of Shame, prior to Sissy's arrival, played by a stunningly raw Carey Mulligan, we see a glimpse into Brandon's routine.  Although it is definitely an NC-17 routine, I wouldn't say this looks like a man lost in sex.  We all have our passions.  Some of us come home and think about nothing more than conversing with our other halves.  Other people come home wondering about who Kenny Dalglish is going to dress for his opening eleven.  Would we call a football fan checking BBC Sport at lunch lost in his fervour for sport?  Brandon's behaviour out of work may inspire envy or disgust in us, but I think it is a reach to argue that it is ruining his life.  In fact, it seems quite the opposite.  Less that twenty minutes into the film, we hear Brandon's boss declare to strangers that Brandon "fucking nailed it today".  So it seems that he has his shit together at this point.  This all changes when Sissy arrives.

Brandon's routine, no matter how strange it may seem, is disrupted.  To me it seems that all of his destructive behaviour stems out of his interactions with his sister and with other people.  There is an aspect of the plot that involves Brandon attempting to court a woman in a more tradition manner (i.e. dinner, chat, not having sex within a few hours of meeting him).  This arc culminates in Brandon not being able to perform in bed with this woman.  Some argue that this is due to his inability to enjoy emotional and (in a condescending  manner) more "meaning" physical contact.  This may be an aspect of it, but I feel that what is more revealing is the run up to these dates.  What is his motivation for courting this woman?  Between the opening scene and the date, the major shake ups in his life are Sissy's arrival and a suspicious and somewhat stern conversation with his boss (who is a more complex character than the screenplay really portraits) regarding the internet browsing history of his work computer.  Brandon gets a first hand look of his own behaviour when his sister beds his boss within the evening of meeting him.  The conversation he later has with the boss is comically accompanied with a Skype conversation with the boss' son. Ergo, it seems a natural progression that Brandon will feel more inclined to reject his own behaviour and pursue a more conventional relationship at this time. 

Despite his attempts to reject his current lifestyle (even going as far to throw out his "dirty" laptop and pornography magazines), things don't work out the way Brandon envisioned (as mentioned above).  This I feel has more to do with him feeling out what works for him emotionally.  Who are we to say that a string of emotionless sex is less satisfying than a relationship?  Brandon had the chance to consummate a more traditional relationship but his body rejected it.  This scene is followed up with Brandon partaking in his more regular behaviour.  From here, things carry on as normal until Sissy walks in on him masturbating.  They have a brief fight, a slight argument and then Sissy makes a point about the poor relationship their family have ("If I left now, I’d never hear from you again.  Don’t you think that’s sad?").  It is here that Brandon's behaviour becomes more erratic and destructive.  What follows is a sequence that I both hold in awe and feel slightly ambiguously about.  He goes to bar and has a bit to drink.  While he sits at the bar, a rather breasty young woman approaches.  Flirting would be an understatement for what occurs between them, but the fact is, it is apparent very early on in this sequence that the young lady is accompanied by someone.  Looking at the surroundings, one can surmise that this gentleman would be of a rather tough and physical nature.  Surprise, surprise, he doesn't take to Brandon very kindly.  Now, is Brandon so starved of physical contact that he can't help himself from putting his hands up the young lady's skirt?  No, not at all.  In fact he enjoys sexual contact at least twice more that evening.  What I think is that he's deliberately putting himself into a precarious situation, in some sort of misguided self-martyred emotional state.  

Following his beat down by a couple of bar room thugs, Brandon makes eyes with a guy across the road.  The man disappears into a building.  Brandon follows.  What luck!  He's stumbled upon a gay sex club/brothel thing.  My issue here is that this is in the middle of a very emotional overwrought section.  The editing and soundtrack are both disorientating and tense.  I think it is a natural conclusion to assume that the director/editor/general production team designed this whole triptych to be the "downfall" section of the film.  The only issue here is that no comment is ever made about sexuality or sexual health throughout the film so it almost appears homophobic merely by its positioning in the plot.  Sure, bisexuality may be something that Brandon has never considered before, but by positioning it here, the film seems to imply that this is negative or self destructive behaviour, which I can't agree with.  Finally there is a climatic threesome finale to this sequence.  This is the most ambiguous.  It arrives at the fever pitch of this arc.  It clashes violently with a voice over from Sissy on Brandon's ignored mobile answer phone.  It sums up these two characters perfectly.  "We’re not bad people. We just come from a bad place."  The issue here is that Brandon doesn't seem to be enjoying himself so much in this sequence.  Is this a moment of realisation or fatigue?  Is he realising that his "dependancy" on sex is out of control or merely that he should be facing up to his responsibilities at this time?  

Truthfully I feel that the most traumatising experiences Brandon goes through in this film are family related.  First, he has to overhear his boss fucking his sister.  How does he deal with this?  Goes for a jog.  Secondly, he realises that he can't escape his family or his past.  How does he deal with this?  Puts himself in a situation where he can get beat up.  He drinks, receives a blowjob and has a threesome.  The fact that he doesn't react to both situation similarly argues that he is not behaving habitually.  In the latter sequence, do we feel that he is lessening himself by partaking in these experiences?  Is he cheapening himself?  I don't feel that the film puts that across.  In fact, the only way he lessens himself is by ignoring his responsibilities as Sissy's brother.  Sometimes I do similar things, but if I'm ignoring my family by watching Have I Got News For You, does that make me a television addict? 

Another film about addiction that I've heard Shame gathering comparison to is Requiem for a Dream.  However, unlike Shame, in that film we very much see the lengths that those suffering from addiction will go to in order to get their fix.  On top of that, we see what happens when these people are denied their desired substances.  Of course, this is not a fair comparison.  Not only is heroin illegal and harder to obtain, my understanding is that the addiction is more physiological.  Interesting, Shame never deals with what would occur if Brandon went some time without sex.  Even during Sissy's tenure with him, he continues to masturbate.  During the bar sequence with his boss, it appears he may be going home alone, and then like some Deus Ex Fuckina, he is picked up by a woman.  Truthfully, we have no sense of what lengths he would go to for fucking.

So, lets compare with another readily available product - beer.  Interestingly, there are only a couple of sexual encounters depicted in Shame that don't feature alcohol.  Hell, even when he is home after work watching pornography, there's a beer on the table.  Now, if we were to see him slip him to the bathroom and swig on a hip flask, I think we'd be quite right to label him an alcoholic, but I think that would have more to do with how reckless this behaviour is given the affect that alcoholic has on us.  However, sexual release does not impair our ability to concentrate or perform our jobs adequately.  In fact, I'd imagine that his ability to work effectively will have probably improved after his bathroom break.  However, yet again, this is not a fair comparison due to the physical effects of booze.  Gambling might be closer to the mark, but must be ignored due to its financial implications.  Is gambling only an issue when you, inevitably, stop winning?  So is sex addiction not defined similarly in seeing the lengths Brandon goes to in order to have sex after being rejected?  We wouldn't know as sex is a very easy prospect for the character.  

In the end, I think Shame is a bizarrely puritanical look at someone who is more sexually liberal than the majority of the population.  The so-called low points of his narrative arc only come from what I deem to be a somewhat temporary notion or desire to be more like other people rather than to be true to himself.  The true conflict in this film completely revolves around his distraught and strained relationship with his sister.  Brandon doesn't appreciate how much Sissy means to him and this very little to do with him sleeping with prostitutes.  Instead of facing up to whatever history they have, he avoids it; sometimes in having sex, sometime in attempting to date someone.  Let this not detract though from the incredibly job that Mulligan, Fassbender and McQueen have done on this film.  In fact, I was thinking earlier today that with this effort, McQueen has made a very strong claim for the greatest contemporary director.  His ability is near unparalleled in this day and age when it comes to telling a story visually, no matter how complex or debate-worthy it is.
  
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Other musings

Phew, what a week.  Even with my study day today, I worked 50 hours this week.  I've got a nice study weekend ahead of me too.  

I nearly had a date tonight.  Not sure what happened there.

On a lighter note, I have a friend.  She gets in touch with me every couple of months to complain about whatever boy she's dating at the time over a few drinks (which I always pay for - last time it was champagne!).  Sometimes we make plans to meet and she forgets to follow up on them.  She got in touch a few weeks ago declaring that we should do something upon this Thursday.  I agreed doubting that she would remember when it came to the actual day.  Unfortunately, she did remember.  She's quite a sensitive gal, so I didn't just want to tell her that I wasn't in the mood.  She wouldn't take well to that.  Instead, I texted her throughout the day telling her that I was stuck in the office (I'm a liar sometimes, deal with it - though to be fair, I only got out yesterday at 7pm, so I was truthfully knackered).  I told her frequently that it seemed that I wouldn't be able to make it.  She turns up to the bar anyway on her own and shouts at me.  She no longer wants me to get in contact with her.  Considering I rarely spoke to her anyway, this does not seem difficult. 

Body Heat and Wild Things made for a surprisingly good double bill.  I really have to give Wild Things credit for how offbeat and intriguing it was.  Both end with nice beach shots.  

I am extremely envious with Gary Sanchez Productions and their gorgeous logo.  Grr.   

This week may involve a lot of study, J Edgar, a trip to a farm, jogging and other such film.  Now, off to bed with me with Diane Keaton's book (nearly finished!).  I will wake up in 6 hours, go jogging, post my LOVEFiLM, come back and study.  I can't wait until I finish my exams.  Then I will have to think of another excuse for not working on my script.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Time to kill off 2011 for real and other musings

So let's finally hammer the stake into the chest of this dead donkey of a year.  I ran down my list of 2011 movies a couple of days ago, but I watched an awful lot more, so here's a couple of lists and what not psoing as a blog post to mask the fact that I haven't written anything creative in a while.

Top ten films I saw for the first time in 2011 that weren't made in 2011

10) Chico & Rita (Tono Errando, Javier Mariscal)
9) To Kill A Mockingbird (Robert Mulligan)
8) Metropolitan (Whit Stillman)
7) Sherlock Jr (Buster Keaton)
6) The Seventh Seal (Ingmar Bergman)
5) The General (Clyde Bruckman, Buster Keaton)
4) This Is England (Shane Meadows)
3) Wild Strawberries (Ingmar Bergman)
2) His Girl Friday (Howard Hawks)
1) Crimes and Misdemeanours (Woody Allen)

A nice range on the film education front this year, a nice mix of catching up on films I missed recently and older, more pretentious affairs.  Big shouts have to go to Chico & Rita and Metropolitan.  I think the rest of that list are already recognised as classics.  Sherlock Jr (1924) was also the oldest film I watched this year.

Worst ten films I saw for the first time in 2011 that weren't made in 2011

10) Alice in Wonderland (Tim Burton)
9) Pandorum (Christian Alvart)
8) The Shadow (Russell Mulcahy)
7) 50 First Dates (Peter Segal)
6) 3000 Miles to Graceland (Demian Lichtenstein)
5) Evangelion: 2.0 You Can (Not) Advance (Masayuki, Kazuya Tsurumaki)
4) Johnny Mnemonic (Robert Longo)
3) Alvin and the Chipmunks: The Squeakquel (Betty Thomas)
2) The Black Dahlia (Brian De Palma)
1) Belle De Jour (Luis Buñuel)

I think the Evangelion film at five stings the most.  I was and remain a huge fan of that franchise.  After watching the first of the new rebooted films, I was impressed with how pretty the visuals were (amazing what a decent budget can do for an animated film), but overall I was confused as to why they were attempting this.  Condensing a 26 episode series into four films is a tough ask when the subject material was already confusing and intense.  Squeezing a new, completely unnecessary character into it as well just added to the problems.  The second film however, was a complete mess.  I actually felt embarrassed by watching it, not because of any graphic subject matter, but just from how awful it was narratively.  Belle De Jour was another film I disliked.  Not because of any issue with its subject matter, but merely how completely nonsensical and melodramatic it was.

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Other musings

So 2011 was a vast improvement on 2010.  In fact, looking back, there's a great number of things that I'm very glad happened.  I visited Japan (and in doing so sat on a plane for 12 hours, which is pretty good going by my standards), which was a wonderful experience.  If it weren't for my terrible ability at languages, I'd consider moving there.  Winning a pocket watch in an arcade hardly soured my time there either.

I went to theatre four times this year.  I drank wine on at least two of those occasions (Flare Path, Frankenstein, Richard III, the Lion in Winter).

My brother met Robson Green in a cafe in either Cumbria or Newcastle.  He thought that was pretty cool.

I finally passed my first actuarial exam.  Yippee.

I've taken part in a couple of adventures, enjoyed fine food and finer company.  I finally realised my life would be a lot better with certain people not included, that was nice.

What does 2012 hold in store?  Hopefully a lot more writing, focusing on my projects with Mr Jonathan Hatfull.  Lo-fi, no budget fun.